Saturday, February 12, 2005
this few days hasnt been a very pleasant day.. esp when it came to the nite.. juz wannna get my ass out of my hse very badly.. but as usual.. no khakis.. despite of the new year season.. it isnt of any help to 'cheer' me up.. this morning.. get myself prepared.. and estimated to reach kC hse at around 3+... but thanks goodness to somebody.. lim hong and i.. was stucked at compass point for 1 and a half hour.. gracE!! after that.. went to kC place.. nothing much.. simply talk.. and do abit of catching up.. b4 i left for my aunt place... was suppose to go out with even i dunno who... tried to ask 2-3 grps of pples out... but no avail.. they're either too busy.. dunno where to go.. sianz.. or not willing to fork out for the midnite cab. thanks god.. im back at home blogging now.. was highly irritated by the indecisiveness.. not the first time.. but plenty.. i think it's time that i really sick of all this... over n over again.. time n times again.. sick.. really sick of all these.. pple juz act so differently with different kind of pple.. sumtime to the extend i dunno who are all these pple im facing.. would sumone pls tell me... many a time im juz wondering.. i would try to go all out for those pple i call my 'frends'.. whenever i can... but whenever it comes to me.. who are those pple that really do the same thing? the time when i need pple to listen to me.. accompany me.. who are all these pple? not even those pple that repeativetly say that.. 'no matter what.. u know we are here for you..'... no not these pple.. i dunno where are they when i need them.. seriously no idea... they would go all out to these place and that place.. at irregular hours to meet sumbody.. and when it's juz the same thing happening to us... different result was shown... was it me.. who's being unappreciative.. uncontented with my frends.. blah blah...or wat?? hey peeps.. i seriously dunno the answer... and i'm still searching very hard.. many atimes.. i juz felt that.. no pple really know me well.. no.. not even the Cs.. how many pple really appreciate what i have done to them..? nobody knows.. i think i juz gotta do some soul-searching on myself... yeah.. and i shall....
*Disappointed* Toast
*Disappointed* Toast